let me tell you something
sunday is my day of rest
it’s for the best
i use my brain for something else today —

sometimes i wish, that i wouldn’t have
so many interests
that i wouldn’t be such a smart ass
never satisfied with one answer
i’m still searching myself
losing time
focused on same marginal subject —

as it turned out last week
sometimes it’s helpful
to be able to adapt
fast enough to accept
i do have boundaries
and can tell the very fact
that i’m no genius
in every aspect
of the human game on earth —

but i also lose interest
too soon sometimes
that’s why my curriculum looks the way it does
longest time at universities
and i won’t back
but with the same people —

only able in my memories
that’s why i write
that’s why i’m writing right now
to clear my mind
writing down what’s out of order
putting letter by letter
in order
so my mind can get some kind
of structure back —

tomorrow starts the beginning of something new
still not a proper job
i’m still my own business
which would be great
if i had made IT
you know
being a name on the market
recognisable
marketable
but somehow —

i don’t want that either
recognisable
yes, maybe
marketable
no, definitely not —

boundaries are there
to jump over
walls are there
to tear down
roofs are there
to put glass on it
letting the sun in
kicking a ball
making the glass break
into thouthands of tiny little pieces —

i’m at ease
right now
if i wasn’t my sunday lazy
i would get a cigarette
go onto my balcony
and enjoy the fresh night breeze —

if i wasn’t my sunday lazy
i wouldn’t have used just small letters —

if i wasn’t my sunday lazy
i would be already in bed
sleeping.

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        © Dominik Alexander / 2023